Oh but then, I push people away.
Oh how I wished to be loved, With all my faults and freckles. Someone to hold me tight, When I just wanna give up the fight. Oh but then, I push people away. Before I even let them in, Before they see me for who I am, My messes and mistakes, My weirdness and quirks. So they could decide for themselves, Oh but then, I push people away. Will I ever have the courage, To be the real me, And loose the crowd but gain good company? Maybe tomorrow, I will try again, One person, one moment, Into the world of I, Me and Myself. But there is one, who stays, Despite my defense mechanisms, One whom I don’t have to explain myself to, One who loves me for me, Even when I push him away. Father in heaven, Teach me how to love, And be loved. Even if it hurts sometimes. There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18 NIV https://1john.bible/1-john-4-18